Faith vs. Denial

Let me just say I am all for faith. I pray everyday for the protection of those I love and that good days will come to those of us suffering. However one thing I am not for is denial. I live in a realistic way. I know I am sick and I know the approximate prognosis for me at this time. I do not live in a fantasy world and believe that one day I will just wake up and be fine. I keep with treatments and know how to handle myself. I do not consider this to be negative. I have just been disappointed an have come to realize that you cannot always expect a miracle. They come. I believe whole heartidly that there are miracles everywhere but I do not think if I live in denial I will feel better. I came out long ago so I would not have to live a lie and I refuse to pretend I am healthy as well. I have my good days and bad days like everyone else. So for me. Please do not tell me I am not sick. That I can be saved. I respect that you are trying to help but trust me. I research. I pray. I am looking for a cure. Thank you.